Mood: Notoriously happy. Tunes: "Androginy" by Garbage.
People definitely earn every bit of experience the get through their coming through life. And life, as we know her to be, is a downright, trash bag, straightforward, bitch. Some people don’t really enjoy that, but that’s how the game gets played.
I myself have gotten a kick out of all the recent jokes life has put on my path, which has gotten me seriously thinking about how hard it is to find happiness. I mean, people date pictures, advertising ads and (myself included) society has developed a completely wrong idea of what to look for in that special hubby we’re so trying to find in this electronically impaired world of today.
My question remains the same: Why can’t I find myself in a stable relationship that doesn’t have anything to do with sex? (Ok, I’m a guy it’s all about sex, but you get the idea). Maybe I’m looking in the wrong places; I had that one figured out since last year. Maybe I’m not trying hard enough, but that one dawned on me in January 08, so I’m still working on it. And maybe, just maybe, I’m not what other people are looking for, that one kinda nails it in.
I’ve made a sport out of falling into the wrong people for a wide variety of issues not worth getting into right now, but, I can’t exactly change who I am in order to find love, it must be something spontaneous and natural to meet the right person for the right reason, just being who I am.
I don’t know what state of mind I’m at right now, but I want more. I’m in a great moment in my professional career, things are looking up and I can’t complain about anything that’s going on right now in my life. I really feel good, but not great. And I want to know what feeling great is, for once, for the right reasons.
Expect more posts regarding this sudden revelation of mine.